Dreams VS Reality

 Routines and deadlines create effectiveness.

Some time ago, I wrote a post about the flexible lifestyle I used to have. I wasn't feeling well so I took a day off from all the writing yesterday. I stopped to think and I realized that I've come so far. I'm exactly the opposite of the person I was.

Which one is the real me? I'd say both of them are. I simply changed for the better. I'd call one of them the past me and the other my better self.

This is how my daily schedule looks nowadays.

7/27 Sat

Time	Present day		Tomorrow
	Schedule	Clock-in	Schedule	Clock-in
05:00
06:00
07:00	Laundry
08:00	Game	09:30
09:00	Reply	12:50
10:00	上課	10:00
11:00
12:00	Lunch	12:50
13:00	Duolingo	13:36
14:00	Guarded	14:45
15:00	New novel	X
16:00	Blogpost	18:01
17:00	Reading
19:00	Blog reno
20:00	Linktree
21:00	Netflix
22:00	Schedule
23:00	Sleep

I have already left my job for some time now. Savings were long gone. I was on the phone with my mom a few days ago. She was worried that I'd cut down on food due to my low budget. At some point, she was using her stressed tone and saying a bunch of things like come back to the country, you said you have a double major so there are many things you can do even in the country, why don't you come home?

I knew she wanted me to stay at home. Since the day I left the country, she told me not to get married to other countries. She hoped that I'd eventually go back.

To be honest, it's true that there are many things I could do anywhere. However, there are things I want to do here. My mom started talking about things like marriage. That was when I realized that even I'll have to face this topic discussion sooner or later.

I'm 26 and I'm thankful this topic only arises now. I know that in the view of some people, I'm considered old at this age and should settle down soon. However, my life is only beginning right now. There are many things that I want to do. Last night, I got all fired up and listed the things I'd want to accomplish every year from now.

There is always opposition. It's not always a black-and-white kind of yes or no answer. Things can always be arranged to accommodate both parties. The key to everything is communication.

Too much was sacrificed in the past. Now that I have the ability to handle things, I'd want to do it right, at least to achieve the best result in the current situation with my current ability.

Life is great, not because it's smooth sailing, but because there are challenges.

Big challenges, big happiness.